Back to school, all over again

I was hit by a car, not today, but around 10 years ago. my future wife was behind the wheel, not that the event itself matters. it is a nice story, if you like that sort of thing. but AFTER i rolled off the windshield, and also after i hit the asphalt, but before i stood up--the awestruck moment of realizing what happened, all the potential consequences, and the self diagnostics that go through your head if you know anything about spinal cord injuries.

that's where i am right now, its the best i can equate it to. cory called me midday and asked if my first day was-i forget how he put it- spiffy. at the time i had just rolled off the windshield, but before i hit the asphalt. it was not momentous, it was mildly daunting.

let me explain that it was not bad, i was not pelted with rotten fish, nor was i forced to walk the hallways to the murmured word leper on everyone's lips. i just felt alone, and doing things (like trying to crash classes) that were bordering on pointless. i went to 4 classes today, if you don't count the "modern sexuality" class that i walked into the last 15 minutes of on invitation of the instructor (a very bold fellow, who amused me greatly, and i got the impression the feeling was mutual-he stayed behind a few moments to chat)

i still don't know if i got into ochem, or physics lab (but i get to try all week long to find a physics lab) so those classes were akin to urchins looking into the bakery window (all that warm fresh education, hot from the oven, but i can only watch from the outside as others partake in electron orbital geometries, and immutable laws). and there is a certain kind of disappointment that goes along with that, solaced only by the knowledge thatsomeday i will be in the metaphorical bakery before graduation.

after lunch my luck changed, and i went to the one class i was enrolled in today medicine as literature, the instructor had changed (and into a woman-which is awesome as female lit teachers love me (i don't know what it is, i'm just sayin')) and the class seems interesting and i have already asserted my dominance--i answer questions, sit in the front, and engage the instructor. she also invited meg to come in to address the class, upon finding out her profession, and literary achievements. and then i actually managed to get added to health sciences for secondary educators, so i am now at 12 units (with a little more shuffling and hopefully another class to add) so i am at full time.

meg got me weinerschnitzel for dinner to celebrate, she's sweet like that sometimes. tomorrow, i go to work and then back to campus.